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Saturday, January 20, 2007

missing my friends

Today, I read a piece of news on the internet, that a female Doctor, who is a teacher in one of the most famous college, suicided, jumped from the window of her apartment, dead.

Each time, I read news like these, my heart aches. It always reminds me two of my best friends, Sky and Mickey (Their nicknames), both in Beijing University.

Sky is younger than me, he is very enthusiasm, always preparing to help others. Hard working, the top 1 student in my province. But, he dead because of a sudden illness. I went to his house immediately when I got the information about his death, I could not believe. His mother and father could say no words.

Mickey, a lovely girl, who likes singing, always talking with great humor. We all like her very much. I could still remember that one day when I was in a beautiful park, one of my classmates sent me a SMS, 'Mickey suicided', the SMS said. I was shocked, and I thought it was a joke. I called her back at once, and she cried on the other side of the phone. It was real, Mickey suicided, yesterday morning.

I could not believe a girl like Mickey who loves everyone, always make other people laugh, such an enthusiasm girl, would suicide. But soon, I read from the newspaper that it was real.

Then I read her last words.

She said she brought out a piece of paper, wanted writing something down. the left side of the paper, reasons for living, the right side, reasons for dieing. and she found out the right side of the paper was a full, and left side, almost blank. So she jumped from the high building in her school.

Till now, I always talk to myself, If I could call Mickey, If I could do something before that, maybe she could still live happily. I could not forgive myself.

Soon after that, I joined a union, I am a volunteer in my college, helping other students solve their problems, and always pay attention to students who upset or enduring hard times. Keep them from suicide.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Do You Believe?

Is there a person who cheater, who hurt you deeply?
He apologized for what he did, but you find it still can not ease the pain in your heart?
Do you find it is really very hard to believe him again?
Sometimes he tells you something, but you still cannot believe him, and just think he is lying again whether he is really lying of not.
What is your opinion on this condition?
Could you tell me about this?

I am in trouble about this, and I just want your opinions about this.
Thank you very much.

Do You Believe?

Is there a person who cheater, who hurt you deeply?
He apologized for what he did, but you find it still can not ease the pain in your heart?
Do you find it is really very hard to believe him again?
Sometimes he tells you something, but you still cannot believe him, and just think he is lying again whether he is really lying of not.
What is your opinion on this condition?
Could you tell me about this?

I am in trouble about this, and I just want your opinions about this.
Thank you very much.